Struggling.....why? Pffft 'cause I'm a Drama Queen!

YIKES...totally crushing on Mr. Muscles! What the hell? Why do I like him? Wait do I even like him? I think I do....ughhhh this is so poopy!
I don't know why I keep struggling with this. I honestly think that if it's this much of a struggle that I'm not ready to be with him any way so why should I freak out? Oh oh pick me...'cause I'm a freak and totally obsessed with this whole situation.

Do I want a relationship....NO...well maybe....ok if it's with him ya I could be ready!

You see...this is absolutely ridiculous. This is how I'm answering my questions these days. Everyone keeps telling me to just breath and just have fun...pffft so not happening.

Anyone have a club to beat me over the head with.....

Ok lets try this again...

Do you like Mr. Muscles? Yes I'm crushing on the dude.
Do you want to be with Mr. Muscles? Yes I do...
Why? Because I'm supppppper attracted to him and think that it would be kind of fun to be his princess on a pedestal. He treats women really well, he's usually the one getting screwed over by the women he choses.(I said that last sentence to all those with the question "if he treats women so well then why isn't he taken?)

ok now are you ready for a relationship? Maybe, I still can't say yes and I still can't say no.

How does the above even count if I can't even answer one simple question

...BECAUSE I'M A DRAMA QUEEN!




P.S. I have a headache....