Testing.....huh!

I was walking home from the train station on Monday thinking to myself who the hell walks home in 40 degree heat. The walk is only 15 minutes but for the love of Pete it's the longest 15 mins EVER!
So I'm stopped at a stop light and I'm plugged into my MP3 player with the tunes just cranked. I glance off to the left and there is a younger kid (I can say that 'cause I'm old now)in a 2 door faded red Honda civic hatchback with his subs just a poundin'! He's playing some rap crap that he probably doesn't even know the words to. Hes going pretty fast down a pretty busy street...but I was getting ready to walk across the street so why was he going so fast isn't the light about to change?
Yep the light was changing and the other cars going the other way smashed right into him. This little faded red Honda civic hatchback was annihilated by two dodge trucks (they were new) and a ford explorer. So his car looked like a smushed pop can. I felt bad for him...he looked like he was just coming back from a good day at the beach. He made a stupid mistake and ya he could have killed someone BUT he didn't 'cause everyone was outside of his car pointing fingers and screaming in his face.
The funny part of this whole story is that the older lady dressed in a long thick fabric dress with horrible shoes, wearing earings that were way to big for her head and the crapiest dye job EVER says "and you guys wants to know the badest part....he was probably testing". So I turned to her and said "what the hell is testing?" he drove right by us and he had both hands on the wheel. She then says "Well he was playing he music soooo loud, he probably couldn't think!".....I was looking at her with this holy fuck you are retarded and if you say one more word in this heat I'm going to punch you in the face, face and looked back and yelled "it's TEXTING not testing...FYI!"

Testing......really......GET SOME NEW CLOTHES LADY!

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2 words....Pool and Party

I LOVE POOL PARTIES!

I had a few people over on Sunday to bake in the sun and swim in the pool. I love my little spot. I've recently moved from downtown where I had everything at my finger tips to out in the burbs where there are only a handful of restaurants and stores and pubs and things to do. Going for a walk has a whole new meaning. You don't have to zig zag your way through the biggest thickest crowds you just have to walk...actually you are looked at funny if you are walking. A whole new concept for me to get used to.

Ok back to the pool party....

My apartment is in a perfect spot. I'm so close to everything. It was a great decision to move back out here.

Holy I'm tangent queen this morning.

Back to the pool party...

My apartment building complex consists of 3 three level buildings with a mini park behind building 2 and 3. There is a pool and tennis courts. It's great! My apartment doesn't even get hot. I love it!

Ok...for those of you who actually read through this mish mash of a post, I give you a cyber high five. This one is hard to follow but you have now got to my point....see below!

POINT: I LOVE HAVING THE GIRLS OVER TO SIT BY THE POOL. ITS PERFECT!

Playlist #2 - Gangsta Mix

I found a list of songs I wanted back in the Napster days, so I took a few of them and put this together. Enjoy...LOL


http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=4D9977E6DB0F3B20

Lead me not into temptation...I can find it myself!

I'm just shaking my head....

From Chocolate, to pasta, to men, to flavored vodkas, to other guilty pleasures...how the hell does one keep up!

They say life is to short to stand by and watch...they say live your life as if everyday is our last....they say take one day at a time.....they say to take the bull by the horns.....Seriously shouldn't we be all dead!

I think I need to rethink my life strategies.

Closure Baby....Closure

Ok just so you know this is my second attempt at this posting...my computer ate the last one....

So Yesterday a wierd not so fun day but turned out to be a good day....ya I don't really get it either. Just read on it should make sense at the end.

I was being messaged by friends that were telling me they are either by a pool, or at a beach or took the day off...I was sooo jealous thats all I wanted to do and was not motivated to continue working. But for all you lucky ones out pfffffft...pretend this is one of those sarcastic smiley faces that you can do on BBM or messenger.I knew when I got home the fun would continue with the messages as I was flinging one liners back at everyone. Although I had an added bonus of cleaning the house and laundry.

So I put on a pair of heals that I had to break in for tonight and did laundry. I did 2 loads and then attacked the kitchen. Yes all in heals. While in the kitchen I looked at the last 7 boxes I have left sitting in my living room. These are the 7 boxes of filing, memories and a few other things that I just don't want to set up because it reminds me of Big A.
So I finished dishes and like a bat out of hell jumped on those 7 boxes. They had all the memories all the photos, the picnic stuff and the ticket stubs. But after 2 hours of sorting it they have been tossed, memories of mexico and oregon are all gone. But....then I got to South Africa.....huff...that's where it hit me that I'm closing another door. I organized everything that I wanted to keep and everything I wanted to toss and...well....I got 'er done!
Wooohooo I don't have to worry about those stupid boxes anymore. I'm so proud of myself. This marks another mile stone in the "erase all memory of Big A" healing process.

Thank you speedy healing gods, who ever is listening to my wishes "I FREAKIN' LOVE YOU!"

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So...it's Monday......

If I could make one of those little sarcastic smiley faces on here I would...

Today is such a mish mash of garbly goop that it's starting to look like a bowl of rice, topped with tomato sauce and strawberries! What a nutter of a day and it's not even noon yet.

Things on my mind: (not in any particular order)

1. boys
2. getting cable and internet hooked up (i'm stealing both right now)
3. getting a charge reversed on my cell bill
4. getting two ads done up and all I'm getting is questions....just do it!
5. making a Dr's appt.
6. family
7. friends
8. being bored
9. being to busy
10. unpacking some more of my crap and getting rid of as many boxes as possible
11. the bachelorette tonight
12. oh boys just popped back into my head
13. food...I think I'm getting hungry
14. I just got a new pink pen.....
15. oh getting blood tests.....terrified of needles....I think I'll wait a few more weeks to do this one.

So this is my mind in a matter of a minute or so...where the hell did I put that off switch...I mean really who has time for this kind of crap on a poopy Monday anyway!


OFF!

Georgia Nicols told me to

I read my horoscope this morning and it said that today was a great day to express my hopes and dreams with my friends and family. So lets get 'er done!

I have the usual hopes as most girls do to get married and meet that perfect guy that wants to love me and worship the ground I walk on. This one has proven to be a little difficult to find. Although I still believe he's out there and my dreams of finding him are not gone.
I would love to have the fairy tale story where the hunka hunka yummy rides in on his white horse and sweeps me up on the horse with a one arm swoop and we ride off into the sunset. This is my ultimate dream.
But now for the reality part of this post, I do keep my feet on the ground for the most part so here are my hopes and dreams that can be achieved a little easier.....hopefully!

I would love to send my sister to school in France so she can become a famous chef. I would love for my brother to start something he loves BUT follow it through and be successful at whatever it is. I want my Dad to find that one women that understands him through and through and be loved the way he has always wanted. I would love for my Grandma to find peace with my uncle as he's the biggest 50 year old baby I've ever known. I would love for my Mom to have everything she's ever wanted but something tells me she already has that so maybe I don't have to dream or hope for anything any more. Go Mom.
My ladies I hope some of you find out that the hardest decisions you've made have just made you that much stronger and believe me every ounce of strength is worth its weight in gold. For a few more of you I dream that slowing down and taking time to never have to plan or schedule or occupy yourself with things that need to get done become part of your day day calendar. And for all of us I dream that we all find love and have a successful full life of everything we have ever hoped and dreamt.

These are my hopes and dreams look up tonight at the stars 'cause today seems to be the best day for making wishes.

Smooches......

Struggling.....why? Pffft 'cause I'm a Drama Queen!

YIKES...totally crushing on Mr. Muscles! What the hell? Why do I like him? Wait do I even like him? I think I do....ughhhh this is so poopy!
I don't know why I keep struggling with this. I honestly think that if it's this much of a struggle that I'm not ready to be with him any way so why should I freak out? Oh oh pick me...'cause I'm a freak and totally obsessed with this whole situation.

Do I want a relationship....NO...well maybe....ok if it's with him ya I could be ready!

You see...this is absolutely ridiculous. This is how I'm answering my questions these days. Everyone keeps telling me to just breath and just have fun...pffft so not happening.

Anyone have a club to beat me over the head with.....

Ok lets try this again...

Do you like Mr. Muscles? Yes I'm crushing on the dude.
Do you want to be with Mr. Muscles? Yes I do...
Why? Because I'm supppppper attracted to him and think that it would be kind of fun to be his princess on a pedestal. He treats women really well, he's usually the one getting screwed over by the women he choses.(I said that last sentence to all those with the question "if he treats women so well then why isn't he taken?)

ok now are you ready for a relationship? Maybe, I still can't say yes and I still can't say no.

How does the above even count if I can't even answer one simple question

...BECAUSE I'M A DRAMA QUEEN!




P.S. I have a headache....

Current Playlist...

Music has pulled me through so much so I wanted to share my playlist of girly power, men bashing, chair dancing, woot woot shit mix!

http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=3E6ACEC6296E1D65&search_query=lexi%27s+work+mix


Starts off with Single Ladies by Beyonce, there's Janet Jackson, Shaggy (yes I know), country peeps like Taylor Swift, Black Eyed Peas...then....linkin park and Papa Roch and more. I only added one sad song, I figured that's all I was alowed...or maybe that's all that was needed. Meh.....

HAPPY CHAIR DANCIN' Y'ALL!

Where did everyone go?

Ok Trixie...you saw this comin' I'm sure!
I messaged 24 people last night to ask them to be my date to watch the fight....24....how many responses do you think I got! Oooohh oooohhh 4!

This blows....honestly is it really hard to say sorry busy.....send!

No....no it's not!

Ughhhh....ok I'm done now!

Is it me or do I make EVERYTHING SO COMPLICATED

Ok Mr Muscles that I decided to have a romp and rum with has woken up at like 8am and ask me if I want to "hangout" again this week. So I know he thinks of me as soon as he wakes up. And he's a total mush ball. And he's a great kisser. And he likes cuddling. And.....ughhhh! Anyway, I said sure but now I'm have doubts.

Here's how I think I make things complicated:

1. We've done "IT" which means I have every right to know if he's sleeping with anyone else. So I think I've decided to ask him if he is.

2. I think I have a crush on him...totally doesn't help the situation...AT ALL!

3. I think I need to end this because I'm afraid I'll lose him as a friend. (pffft note to self...you had sex with the guy. It's a known deal breaker between friends)

4. Friday and Saturday 3 guys said "I want to beep you tonight!" so I'm starting to feel like a piece of meat which doesn't help the current situation either.

I think I create my own drama. Seriously I said it in my last post "The situations I put myself into!" Good gaaaawwwwd!

Any suggestions...anyone.....GET ME OUT OF THIS SITUATION! I'll listen this time I promise I will......

Uggghhhh BOYS

WTF..."I want you soooooo bad", "I have been waiting for this opportunity for ever", "I have pitched a huge tent".....REALLY! Who the hell says that last one? Oh and does he think it really turns me on..."I have pitched a huge tent" ugggghhh....

This is what I was dealing with last night. I am planning on meeting up with a guy that I've been friends with for about 13 years (we're not close, we hung out here and there when our mutual friends hung out...so mostly in the summer camping) and having nothing but a romp and run.
He was texting me all last night telling me all about how he felt in high school and how he was to chickenshit to say anything...blah blah blah but now because I've approached him he's busting out all the garble blarble.
Pfffft.....he's lucky he's huggggeee (muscles...not flab) and he's hot and he's a damn good kisser or mark my words this wouldn't be happening.
Oh this better be good tonight......


The shit I get myself into!

Do bad things really come in 3's?

It seems to be one of the most popular sayings "bad things come in threes".
Did I do something to deserve this or is it just my time? SERIOUSLY if it's something I did I'm sorry and I promise to be good for the rest of my life.
In the last month so many good things have outweighed the bad but now things have caught up.

1. 3 year long relationship done. Found out he made out with a girl in the first 2 months. I didn't find out until 3 weeks after we broke up.

2. My Grandpa is dying. He has a week to go.

3. WHAT GOES HERE?

I'm so scared of what #3 is going to be. *sigh*