Georgia Nicols told me to

I read my horoscope this morning and it said that today was a great day to express my hopes and dreams with my friends and family. So lets get 'er done!

I have the usual hopes as most girls do to get married and meet that perfect guy that wants to love me and worship the ground I walk on. This one has proven to be a little difficult to find. Although I still believe he's out there and my dreams of finding him are not gone.
I would love to have the fairy tale story where the hunka hunka yummy rides in on his white horse and sweeps me up on the horse with a one arm swoop and we ride off into the sunset. This is my ultimate dream.
But now for the reality part of this post, I do keep my feet on the ground for the most part so here are my hopes and dreams that can be achieved a little easier.....hopefully!

I would love to send my sister to school in France so she can become a famous chef. I would love for my brother to start something he loves BUT follow it through and be successful at whatever it is. I want my Dad to find that one women that understands him through and through and be loved the way he has always wanted. I would love for my Grandma to find peace with my uncle as he's the biggest 50 year old baby I've ever known. I would love for my Mom to have everything she's ever wanted but something tells me she already has that so maybe I don't have to dream or hope for anything any more. Go Mom.
My ladies I hope some of you find out that the hardest decisions you've made have just made you that much stronger and believe me every ounce of strength is worth its weight in gold. For a few more of you I dream that slowing down and taking time to never have to plan or schedule or occupy yourself with things that need to get done become part of your day day calendar. And for all of us I dream that we all find love and have a successful full life of everything we have ever hoped and dreamt.

These are my hopes and dreams look up tonight at the stars 'cause today seems to be the best day for making wishes.

Smooches......

Struggling.....why? Pffft 'cause I'm a Drama Queen!

YIKES...totally crushing on Mr. Muscles! What the hell? Why do I like him? Wait do I even like him? I think I do....ughhhh this is so poopy!
I don't know why I keep struggling with this. I honestly think that if it's this much of a struggle that I'm not ready to be with him any way so why should I freak out? Oh oh pick me...'cause I'm a freak and totally obsessed with this whole situation.

Do I want a relationship....NO...well maybe....ok if it's with him ya I could be ready!

You see...this is absolutely ridiculous. This is how I'm answering my questions these days. Everyone keeps telling me to just breath and just have fun...pffft so not happening.

Anyone have a club to beat me over the head with.....

Ok lets try this again...

Do you like Mr. Muscles? Yes I'm crushing on the dude.
Do you want to be with Mr. Muscles? Yes I do...
Why? Because I'm supppppper attracted to him and think that it would be kind of fun to be his princess on a pedestal. He treats women really well, he's usually the one getting screwed over by the women he choses.(I said that last sentence to all those with the question "if he treats women so well then why isn't he taken?)

ok now are you ready for a relationship? Maybe, I still can't say yes and I still can't say no.

How does the above even count if I can't even answer one simple question

...BECAUSE I'M A DRAMA QUEEN!




P.S. I have a headache....

Current Playlist...

Music has pulled me through so much so I wanted to share my playlist of girly power, men bashing, chair dancing, woot woot shit mix!

http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=3E6ACEC6296E1D65&search_query=lexi%27s+work+mix


Starts off with Single Ladies by Beyonce, there's Janet Jackson, Shaggy (yes I know), country peeps like Taylor Swift, Black Eyed Peas...then....linkin park and Papa Roch and more. I only added one sad song, I figured that's all I was alowed...or maybe that's all that was needed. Meh.....

HAPPY CHAIR DANCIN' Y'ALL!

Where did everyone go?

Ok Trixie...you saw this comin' I'm sure!
I messaged 24 people last night to ask them to be my date to watch the fight....24....how many responses do you think I got! Oooohh oooohhh 4!

This blows....honestly is it really hard to say sorry busy.....send!

No....no it's not!

Ughhhh....ok I'm done now!

Is it me or do I make EVERYTHING SO COMPLICATED

Ok Mr Muscles that I decided to have a romp and rum with has woken up at like 8am and ask me if I want to "hangout" again this week. So I know he thinks of me as soon as he wakes up. And he's a total mush ball. And he's a great kisser. And he likes cuddling. And.....ughhhh! Anyway, I said sure but now I'm have doubts.

Here's how I think I make things complicated:

1. We've done "IT" which means I have every right to know if he's sleeping with anyone else. So I think I've decided to ask him if he is.

2. I think I have a crush on him...totally doesn't help the situation...AT ALL!

3. I think I need to end this because I'm afraid I'll lose him as a friend. (pffft note to self...you had sex with the guy. It's a known deal breaker between friends)

4. Friday and Saturday 3 guys said "I want to beep you tonight!" so I'm starting to feel like a piece of meat which doesn't help the current situation either.

I think I create my own drama. Seriously I said it in my last post "The situations I put myself into!" Good gaaaawwwwd!

Any suggestions...anyone.....GET ME OUT OF THIS SITUATION! I'll listen this time I promise I will......

Uggghhhh BOYS

WTF..."I want you soooooo bad", "I have been waiting for this opportunity for ever", "I have pitched a huge tent".....REALLY! Who the hell says that last one? Oh and does he think it really turns me on..."I have pitched a huge tent" ugggghhh....

This is what I was dealing with last night. I am planning on meeting up with a guy that I've been friends with for about 13 years (we're not close, we hung out here and there when our mutual friends hung out...so mostly in the summer camping) and having nothing but a romp and run.
He was texting me all last night telling me all about how he felt in high school and how he was to chickenshit to say anything...blah blah blah but now because I've approached him he's busting out all the garble blarble.
Pfffft.....he's lucky he's huggggeee (muscles...not flab) and he's hot and he's a damn good kisser or mark my words this wouldn't be happening.
Oh this better be good tonight......


The shit I get myself into!

Do bad things really come in 3's?

It seems to be one of the most popular sayings "bad things come in threes".
Did I do something to deserve this or is it just my time? SERIOUSLY if it's something I did I'm sorry and I promise to be good for the rest of my life.
In the last month so many good things have outweighed the bad but now things have caught up.

1. 3 year long relationship done. Found out he made out with a girl in the first 2 months. I didn't find out until 3 weeks after we broke up.

2. My Grandpa is dying. He has a week to go.

3. WHAT GOES HERE?

I'm so scared of what #3 is going to be. *sigh*