My Girls!

Let's start this one off with:

1) I Love you Grandpa! (He's in the hospital, I don't know why yet. I hate being so far away sometimes)

2) Gillian hang in there. We could always smash the other ankle to even you out. (Gillian hurt her ankle last night at football and it's honestly tripled in size)

3) I love my girls (See below)

4) I can't wait to get my new car (I'm so impatient)

5) I'm bored at work but I get paid well (To much on my mind...I haven't touched school stuff since Allan and I broke up)

6) Did I mention I love my girls....

So this is just a short list of things on my mind or things I'm worried about. I hate the saying but it's so true "when it rains it pours!"

There is something really special about having your girls by your side and never having to worry about anything 'cause they're always there. I have a few really great people in my life so I couldn't be luckier. With all the crap that we all go through on a day to day bases I honestly will have to say I would never get through any of it without them.

(Ok brace yourself this is going to get mushy)

From meeting my birth mom to break ups with boyfriends my ladies have always been there. And it's not that they just said that they wanted to and came along for the ride the were really genuinely are just as happy or upset or curious or excited to do whatever it was that I needed to do. I love you all for being who you are and loving me for who I am (and holding me together when I needed it).

Here is a list of the ladies that I'm talking about:

My Momma
Shannon
Ivy
Gillian
Eva
Mechele
Deidre
Jen
Glenda
Julia
Robyn
My Sissy
Tanya

Thank you for making me the luckiest and most taken care of girl EVER! I love you!

Lexi has her Lexi Back!

For all those girls out there that think they can't leave the A-HOLE they are with (wait I'm not a complete man hater just the ones that don't treat women right)just know that you can do it and almost be over it in 3 weeks.
Yesterday marked 3 weeks since Big A (who is now Jack Face)and I were spitz-ville. I honestly feel fine. I don't have the butterflies any more (although I don't have my appetite back)and I feel totally independent and way better off in my situation now. Single and ready to mingle.

Break Up Break Down:

1. You start asking yourself was it the right thing to do? You start to miss all the good times. DON'T THINK OF THE GOOD TIMES BECAUSE....THEY WERE IN THE PAST!! There is a reason that you needed to do what you did so just remember why you broke up. You will be sad and you will cry but it WILL GET BETTER.

2. After you get through week 1 you would like to think that the beginning of week 2 gets easier...ya no! Sorry but it's the truth. You will still wonder what happened and what failed and how you could have fixed it. BUT at the end of week 2 you need to go out and make sure a boy hits on you and gives you attention. Once you have a distraction everything turns around. Going to bed alone isn't a big thing any more, waking up and not having him there just doesn't matter. This is where things turn around really quickly!

3. Week 3 is awesome. You start to feel like a human again and this is where you will start to get into your own routines. Believe me I'm going on Week 4 and it RULES!~

Good key points:
Cut ties immediately and don't look back, if you are meant to be it will happen.
If you live together...get out as fast as possible because that home will feel really crappy.
And...always remember the bad stuff not the good. The good is no use to you now.

WOOOOOOO HOOOOOOO LEXI HAS HER LEXI BACK...LEXI HAS HER LEXI BACK...LEXI HAS HER LEXI BACK!

Huh...

Huh...that's all I can come up with.
See last night sitting down with an old "friend" having a few drinks at a local watering whole, we came back to my place because we were a little too tipsy to drive. We make it back to my place and she shared something with me that I didn't expect.
Big A and her kissed each other in the first year of our relationship.
The story goes "It's Halloween and we were making cookies in the kitchen and after him and I decorated the cookies I put one in my mouth and he went and took the other half while it was still in my mouth. We ended up kissing."
Huh.....
What are you supposed to say to that. I mean I wanted to tare her eyes out of her ass but was there a point? No. Big A and I are over, and now there is no hope of anything ever becoming something again. I'm happy that she in the end told me. That gives me a little more respect for her then Big A. Clearly I was in the relationship with him and he should have been man enough to tell me then.
Huh.....

Way to much Way to fast!

"the cute one", text me all day long and then called me twice last night. I WAS UNPACKING FOR EFF SAKE. I let him know that I was unpacking and he kept texting me...but the one text that just put me over the edge was "I'm going to try and make it out to see you!".....AHHHHH NOOOOO!
I almost died...why, because I was in the "set up my fricken life mood" and didn't want a smitten kitten hounding at me.
So needless to say my text message back to him probably sounded a bit harsh but Mehhhh...what can you do!

On another note:
I set up my book shelf all by my self and even screwed the brackets into the wall. I was so proud, my living room is totally coming together. It is starting to feel like a home! I now look forward to going home! I have a home home home home home...oh life is good!

OMG....I'M FLIRTING!

*Sigh*
So heres the details... in my very first posting "how to flirt when borken" I mention 2 guys that met Gilly billy and I at her "football" game. Well the friend "the cute one" has popped up again at yesterdays football game. Way to go Gilly Billy!
So I'm decked out in my clothes from work...yes heals and all....sitting on the pitch wrapped up in a blanket when "the cute one" and the "other guy" stop by. (I totally looked out of place...but the guys on gilly billys team said I added class to the game!)

Yep round two ding ding take your corners!

So we giggled and talked while gilly billy played and then we went to a bar.....

My head and tummy still feel funny...I think I woke up still drunk!

So "the cute one" and I cuddled in a booth and talked about some pretty intense stuff but I had so much fun!
I got a goodnight text and I good morning text....I think I'm in trouble.....huh day number 16 damn I work fast!

LEOPARD PRINT.......COME ON!

I was grocery shopping yesterday with my Mom when I got a text from Big A.

"how did your move go, hope you are settling in = you have 3 blankets here and can I at least have 1 of the 2 leopard print pillows = bday gift"

Right.....WHAT GUY DO YOU KNOW WANTS ONE FLIPPING LEOPARD PRINT PILLOW! And to boot....who texts like that....how does the first thing = the second...Ughhhhhhh!

During the split up and the dividing of everything I would text him and tell him what I was taking if there was a stink about it I dropped it and left it. Didn't want to make this harder then it already was. So he clearly ended up with a lot more then I did.
And now....he's worrying about a flipping pillow....
So I decided that I had enough. I text him "check your email" because clearly I had way more to say then a 150 character text message. Pfffft.....you want to be picky lets be picky!
This has to be the poopiest part of a break up. I mean if I took his Grandfathers desk that's been in the family for like 100 years then I could understand that he would make a stink about it.

LEOPARD PRINT....YOUR A GUY.....WHAT THE HELL.....

All day long in my PJ's!

So yesterday I decided to take it easy and watch a movie in the morning. Which turned into getting into a new show, which turned into watching 4 episodes of that new show, which turned into not leaving my bedroom all day.
OH IT WAS SO GOOD! And to think I was so nervous about being home alone for the first time. Pfffft...what was I thinking! I loved it.
Game plan for today:
UNPACK...MY LAZY GOOD FOR NOTHING ASS YESTERDAY LEFT ME A LOT OF WORK TO GET DONE TONIGHT!
This is going to be a good thing I can feel it!

Butterflies are so pretty but not when they are in your tummy!

Sitting in my new home, which is awesome don't get me wrong, trying to pick up the pieces after a break up. I'm being held together STILL with some sort of strong tape. I'm constantly told that "it's only been 2 weeks (today actually) give yourself some credit" but I'm the most impatient person you'll meet. I don't have to time to feel like this.
I'm sure we all know the break up feeling. That gut wrenching, nervous, anxious feeling that seriously sucks butt. I sum it up by calling them the ugly butterflies. The ones that are currently doubling in size as we speak are refusing to give me 2 minutes of peace.
Although on the flip side break ups make you so stressed out that you can't eat which makes you really skinny. I've lost 8 pounds in 2 weeks. Woooooot!
I wonder how skinny I'll be in 2 weeks?

How to flirt when broken!

Yay my very own blog! I've finally done it, Thank you Miss Rosa and Trixie.

Ok so what I want to spill my guts about would have to be my most recent drama, my break up with Big A. I was in a relationship for 3 years and it honestly was great. Of course the last 6 months were hell, but that's clearly why we aren't together any more.
So back on track! I'm packing up my life and moving for the 28th time (yes 28, no that's not an exaggeration I've really moved 28 times). We have split everything up and things are actually going smoothly he's even helped me get stuff together.
We are both staying at a friends house and really don't want to be in the "Poopy Break up Pad". So after about 3 hours of packing (I had to stop I had no more boxes left) I met up with gilly billy and we went to her soccer game (as she would call it "football"...she's Scottish). She was chatting with a guy before I got to her house and he agreed to meet us at her game. I was excited for her 'cause she never does anything like this.
The guy posted a hot picture of him all tanned and sexy like and when he got there.... (YA HE ACTUALLY CAME!)he was a little doughy, tanned but round around the middle.
BUT....he brought a friend! Ya he was the good looking one.
After sitting in my chair watching the game then watching them, watching the game and then watching them...I decided to say something (clearly I'm out of practice).
I said "are you who I think you are?" (I know....I know....told you out of practice)and he replied and said ya I'm here to watch the same girl your watching.
Well I ignored him from then on because I introduced my self to the hot one and then as Trixie said "Lexi got her Lexi back". I was flirting and giggling and babbling and making them laugh...oh I felt so human again!

So just because you have felt like you've been hit by train after a break up (I'm only on day 11) hang in there, you'll get you back sooner then you think you will!